Sammy Hamilton's Story
Sam Malcolmson
Sam had joined the police force in 1969 as a young man and because he had served only three years when he was shot, he has suffered with life changing injuries for five decades surviving on the lowest pension. He has been involved with FAIR since 1998 often at the forefront of campaigns to expose the injustice and inequality faced by many former police officers. His advocacy work for victims has spanned the decades when he founded the Disabled Police Officers' Association (DPOA).
“Pain can leave you sometimes very depressed and in a bad mood” His family have had to live with this, but he is very grateful of their support over the years. “To date we’ve survived, a lot of that is down to the guidance of my wife” Saml Malcolmson
He has been a consistent voice for victims often telling his own painful story to highlight the wider suffering of victims and the absence of justice or truth from the PIRA who were behind the attempt to murder him and his colleague in 1972. FAIR featured Sam's story in their powerful video presentation of victims stories.
Injured In The Troubles - Sam Malcolmson from Northern Visions NvTv on Vimeo.
A powerful video interview with Sam recorded for Our Generation Injured In The Troubles Samuel Malcolmson
Marie Breen-Smyth, Associate Dean International, University of Surrey, talks to Samuel Malcolmson about the injuries he received in a terrorist attack and how it’s effected his life.
In 1972 Samuel Malcolmson was stationed in Crossmaglen in South Armagh when he and a colleague drove into an ambush, they were both shot in the back but they manged to make it back to their Police Station because of the driver, even though he too was shot “I do owe my life to him because he was able to control the car to the police station, I think he was just about to pass out, he actually crashed into the gates”
He remembers being injected with morphine by the local doctor. “I didn’t think you could suffer so much pain, and then I can remember on the way down to the hospital in the ambulance the attendant was trying to keep us on the plinths as they were going around the twisty roads and then after that I don’t remember anything”
Samuel was airlifted to the Royal Hospital in Belfast were he spent nine months. “My two legs were out of action for quite a while, but then lucky enough one of my legs came back to full use but the left leg is now left with paralysis, I excepted the fact that somebody shot me, I was a legitimate target in his eyes but the one thing I could never except was weeks later when my father had to come up to the hospital and tell me that my mum had dropped dead at my bedside, that was the hardest thing to take and to this day him and I can not talk about this incident”
Samuel now suffers from severe back pains and shooting pains up and down his leg, he has to use elbow crutches to walk long distances. “The home and the car are my life, as far as walking is concerned I would do as little as possible because it triggers the pain”
Samuel still thinks about the man who did this to him. “I still want to meet the person who pulled the trigger and I’m convinced I know him, circumstances would narrow it down to a couple of people, there’s not a day in life that goes by were I don’t think of that person, when he and the person with him shot me. The following day when my mum dropped dead beside my bed, did he think ‘I’ve gone to far here I didn’t mean for an innocent person to suffer’ I was a legitimate target in his eyes but did his conscience have a twinge and did he think, ‘There’s a family left now without a mum’ or did he think ‘No that’s even better than I thought, I went out to get two cops and I’ve got three people, I’ve ruined their lives in different ways’ so I still want to meet that person, I want to sit eye to eye and talk to them”
Although it has effected his everyday life, Samuel is still determined to keep a level of independence.
Living Memorial Centre Development
AS FAIR marks its 25th Anniversary they have launched an exciting new Living Memorial Centre Development project. Over 15 years ago the group secured premises in Markethill. In what was the school masters house the group developed the first phase of their Living Memorial centre with a reception and administrative hub, meeting room and multi-purpose space, with kitchen. On the first floor an IT suite, and officers were developed. A memorial garden with a marble memorial funded and designed by friends and supporters on the mainland became the centrepiece with a place for victims to reflect and remember.
The group quickly outgrew the building and as new projects and activities were launched a number of temporary offices were placed on site. Over the last decade the group continued to develop the main building with an extended kitchen and disabled access toilets and storage. However as FAIR looked to its first quarter century one of the key priorities was a major development project to modernise and make their centre fit for the future. As members views were canvassed and professional advice Slough the project took shape with a range of new facilities and multiple-purpose spaces envisaged.
Meetings have already begun with the design team and the committee is turning its attention to fundraising. The ambitious target of £250,000 has been set - £10,000 for every year that FAIR has been in existence. The vision for the centre as a 'living memorial' remains strong and guides the group. It see the centre as a place of safety and support. FAIR has developed their facility at Mount Pleasant House as
An accessible, safe, friendly supportive and well resourced facility where victims can—
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Remember loved ones they have lost as a result of the past thirty years of terrorism.
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Meet and share within a social setting where they can share their experiences
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Access professional services to help them deal with their physical and mental trauma,
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Develop the skills, confidence and capacity needed to move on with their lives,
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Receive the support, advocacy and care they deserve from the group they created
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Deal with the Past and provide their interpretation of it in a positive way
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Reintegrate into the community forming practical partnerships that benefit all
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Become a valued group in society playing a full role in building lasting, genuine peace
